Next week we will have been on the waiting family list for one month. This month has passed quickly and without much excitement. We are currently waiting for USCIS to send us our appointment for fingerprints. We wait for documents to be certified and authenticated. We wait for the greatly anticipated "this is your referral" call. We continue to wait for the little girl God has for our family.
While we wait we love. Little A's name is never far from our lips and thoughts. Numerous times a day E will say "when baby sister comes home" or something to that effect. We constantly talk about life with little sister and pray for her daily. E talks of baby sister so often that people frequently ask if we know when she is coming home.
Each day I find myself wondering what our Little A will look like, how old she will be, what will she like and dislike, will she adjust and attach to our family well. Each day my love for this little girl whom we have never met or even laid eyes on grows. It is unexplainable and almost indescribable. I feel a fierce love for a little girl thousands of miles away who may not even be born yet. I feel the protectiveness of a mama as she longs for her little one to be well taken care of. I feel a slight emptiness in my heart as I know our family is not yet complete. As Mother's Day approaches I think of our Little A's birth mother. I think of the loss she has or will experience in the days to come as she places her child for adoption. I think of her as courageous and strong. I am thankful for her. Thankful that she is choosing life for her daughter. She is choosing love. It is an unexplainable love. It is grand. It is beyond comprehension.
We wait and we love. We love with our whole hearts and cannot wait to embrace the precious child God has for us.
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