There has been a long silence on our blog. Days, weeks, even months have passed since our last post. I have several posts swirling around in my head including our referral day post and Little A's 3rd birthday post but to be honest it is hard for me to sit and write about our precious Little A while we continue to wait.
We have had to wait almost 2 months for a specific clearance form in order for our home study to be resubmitted for approval by DCFS and USCIS. For those who do not know, we had to have our home study updated due to Little A's age and biographical description. The home study must contain exact wording that shows that Little A is a good match for our family.
Just yesterday we received word that our clearance form had been received and our home study would be resubmitted. Praise God!
The past two months have been some of the most difficult waiting room moments in our adoption process. I have pictures and videos of my precious daughter who is thousands of miles away but I cannot go to her. Each day I look at her face in the photographs, full of joy and wonder, and my arms ache to hold her. I want to be able to touch her face and memorize everything about her. I want to hear her giggle and know the sound of her voice. I know the day is coming when all of these things will take place but the wait is hard.
As hard as the past two months have been I also realize that our wait has been considerably shorter than the wait other friends have endured. We have dear friends who have had their referral almost 18 months and they continue to wait, other friends waited 6 years for their referral and others continue to await a referral. Adoption is not for the faint of heart. There are many unknowns, many challenges and many hours spent in the waiting room. We do not know when we will travel to bring Little A home but as we wait I want to wait with grace. It is my desire to honor my daughter and my heavenly Father in the waiting room. Sometimes silence is necessary in order to wait well.
We will continue to wait and we will continue to pray and one day (hopefully soon) we will be able to declare, "She is ours, our precious Annalise has come home. Praise God for all He has done!"
